I’m making some dinner as I type this out. Waiting for the water to boil so I can plop some delicious goat cheese ravioli in. Pretty much off the PLAN as I have been for the last several days. I have also had a glass of bubbly tonight and several more every night prior for about a week.
Yes, this means that I don’t have a date with Steve McQueen tonight as I thought I might. He texted me today to see if I could see him late afternoon tomorrow. He even specified between 3 and 7 pm. Guess he’s going to see his mom for lunch and then his youngest kid gets back from a college visit around 7.
So tomorrow it is, but I have to be honest, I’m absolutely not excited about it. Why is he giving me the Secondary Shift instead of Prime Time Saturday Night?? There are a ton of amazing events going on tonight and I feel like I’m missing everything. Of course, that’s not SMcQ’s fault, but what I’m really thinking is that he’s probably attending one of them, you know?
Gotta shake this negative attitude.
I just wish he was EXCITED about me. Clearly, he’s keeping me at arm’s length and beyond. But why, then, does he even keep asking me out?
I’m really confused. It’s a complete mystery.
Athena and I discussed it a little last night before the show - there’s got to be some kind of underlying issue happening here. He was the one who was all about keeping our pants on when we ended up sleeping in my bed the night before the road trip. It’s also interesting that the night we made out at his office until the wee hours made it very convenient to NOT “come up to my place” where the S.E.X. might have happened.
I think he’s avoiding pushing me for sex for a reason. The good news is, I am not ready to have sex with him…but the NORMAL thing would be for the guy to push and the girl to slow it down, right?
UGH. I obsess too much.
In other news, the storytelling show last night was just brilliant. And every time I go to a show, I end up wishing that I could be one of the storytellers. A couple of this season’s themes are making me really excited to put something together to submit. I’m really rolling this around in my brain. I really want to do this! Tell me I can do this!
Got my hair cut and styled today and I felt so great when I left the salon!
My salon is in a cool little neighborhood with high-end home decor stores and a little bit of fashion, plus an Apple store. So I wandered through the neighborhood a bit and stopped in at the Apple store to look at the new iPhone X.
Something came over me and I walked right over to this super-giant dude looking at the phones too. He was HUGE - probably 6‘7” and absolutely gorgeous. He was looking at the phone with a friend, but stopped and got flirty-flirty with me for a good 10 minutes until he had to go. It led to nothing except for a little ego boost.
I don’t know if I love that phone, but for all of the cool camera features, I guess. Bummer that there’s only one size - I actually think bigger is better when it comes to phone size (I have an iPhone 6 Plus and I love it). And my gorgeous big guy shopper friend agreed with me.
I don’t know, folks. I’m happy to be hanging out by myself tonight, eating ravioli, writing an entry and cuddling with the dog, but DAMN…can’t I catch a break when it comes to dating?
Someday soon, please?
xox,
GS
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