Was Supposed to... in Plan B

I really wanted to go out tonight but the day was hot mess. I called one patient 29 times. That does not include allllllll the others. So tired. I was suppose to go to the Patch tonight and listen to some music. It’s close to the house and a chill place but after work and a shower I said fuck it and here I is. What NRG I had is gone. Then I had a late lunch. Late late lunch. After 70 plus alerts and some admits and transfers I needed a break. I eat alone. On purpose. For a reason.
Last night on PBS I watched Vietnam. It was intense. I wish they would have taught us that in school. I feel asleep toward the end. I woke up to the Memorial Wall. I got alot of different perspectives on the V.A. who were there. I can see where their head was at. That is why I loved taking care of them when I did home health.
I am come to making myself more isolated. Not on purpose. I just can’t do lots of people around me. Not so much the people. It’s their NRG. It drains me most of the time. Most take. Hardly ever give. I find it where I can like in art,music, ect. I avoid certain people just because of it.
Went to the thrift store yesturday just to check on ma girls. Annie, Elaine, and Maria. All were good. Found some cool leggings to work out in when the weather breaks. They are made in Africa and there brand new. Got both for $5. Not bad. They fit well. Now just to get my ass to the park to actually work out. I do yoga every morning but I got to build up my body. Now that I have had this job for a year my body shows it. I don’t want to fall apart. Bike to the park, use the equipment and bike home. That is a goal and I will do it. Yes. Dammit.
On that note I will say good night. Peace In and Peace Out. Mostly In.