Guilt? in Check Yes Or No????

i talked to my husband earlier today, i told him i felt awful. i feel like i am a fraud, i feel like my whole life is spiraling out of control. Now look i know you are reading this and thinking that i have a lot of problems but who doesn’t? I Love my Husband, but sometimes i feel like things are missing and i’m not sure if its between us sexually or if it’s emotional. Am i a horrible human being, probably. I know i have a lot to work on with myself and as i am sitting here typing this i cant seem to find where i am in my emotions. Do i feel the guilt? Not today i probably will tomorrow or the next day. I want to be free some times which is why i felt the need to do this, have a free space to write. I need a place where i could vent without hearing someone tell me i’m a bad person and Karma all that. I needed a place to be me, i don’t know who ANON_ME is any more i have been through child birth several times, i have lost multiple pregnancy’s and though these major steps in my life i have fallen away from the person i used to be. I have guilt, the guilt that i feel is that i lost who i am and i don’t think it will be easy to find me again.