Continued Clubbing Story 10/10/2001
The last time we went to the club it was good. So yeah, like I said, I got hit on. I was dancing with this guy who started dancing with me. His buddy started dancing with Blondie. He wasn't bad looking, but nothing to swoon over. We danced for awhile. A girl came up to him and said something, then he told me he'd be right back. He never came back. I wasn't exactly particularly upset. I mean, it is after all a club. What really bothered me is that I couldn't kiss him. I know he was trying to kiss me several times, but for some reason, I just couldn't do it. What the hell? I've hooked up with guys before.
Anyway, then these two boys (Helen swears they were gay) came up to the four of us. Blondie was dancing with some hot blonde guy (go figure), Erin was dancing with someone, and the two boys were dancing with me and Helen. At one point we were a four-person sandwich. It was just funny.
Blondie was hooking up with this gorgeous blonde guy the entire night. I was very envious. We actually lost Blondie for awhile. It turns out that she was with the guy and really didn't mind, so it was OK. While we had lost Blondie, me, Erin, and Helen had gone upstairs to the balcony to look for her. While we were looking, this beautiful boy in a red shirt was motioning to me. In my head, I kind of knew that he was motioning to me, but I tapped Erin on the arm, pointed to the guy, and basically bolted. When she asked what was wrong, I told her that the boy in the red and his friends were motioning to her and Helen. I lied and said I needed to find Blondie. Erin pulled me back to the balcony to where Helen was still standing.
The guy in the red shirt came up the stairs and started talking to Erin. I only tuned in after the second half of the conversation. I heard Erin say, "Yeah, but I have two friends. I can't just leave one." I went over to Helen and asked her what was going on. She said that the boy in the red liked Erin and one of his friends liked me, but Erin didn't want to leave Helen behind. Neither did I. We both went downstairs and Erin followed, with the guy in the red following her. We never found out Red's name. I did find out later that Red and his buddies were in the army and were being shipped to Afganistan next week. Now I feel bad...
Blondie ended up hooking up with Blonde Boy and Erin ended up hooking up with Red. I lost Helen for awhile I just danced with this extremely drunk, extremely tall blonde. We didn't touch each other all night, we just kind of danced.
I have no idea why I shied away from the boys the way I did. I've never had that problem before. I sit and complain and feel bad for myself that I haven't hooked up with anyone yet, but then I shy away when I do get the chance. It's so weird.
Erin has become such a little hooch; it's cute. In a way I'm extremely envious though. Like me, throughout high school, she was quiet, never had a boyfriend, that type of thing. She comes up here and has a boyfriend by the fourth day. She gave him a blow job a day after they started going out. OK, that's a little much, but that's the idea I had when I went away: do things I wouldn't normally do. Well, I'm failing math, I'm getting C's in chemistry, and I'm crying everyday, which are things I don't normally do, you know what I mean. I'm sick of being known as a good girl. Anyway, the first time we went to a club, Erin met this guy named Jim. I mean, she literally met him within the first five minutes and was hooking up with him within ten. Yeah, so they exchanged numbers and he actually called her. They went on a date, which he totally paid for, and he ended up spending the night. From what I've heard from Erin, the oral sex was amazing :o)
I mean, I'm happy for her, but when is it my turn? I'm not talking about the sex, I'm talking about things falling into place for me. It's just so disheartening. This is the exact same as high school. I have a few close friends, guys ignore me (except for Justion from two doors down, but he has a girlfriend). The only difference now is that I'm doing poorly in school. It took me two friggin weeks to find a tutor, and when I finally got one to e-mail me back AND set up a session with me, it was two days before my second math test. What good will one tutoring session do? So now, I may have to drop the class and be left taking eleven credits, which is below SU's minimum. So next semester, not only do I have to work, I have to take five classes again to make up for the credit I'm not getting this semester. I would love to transfer to University of Rochester, but the way things are going, I may not be able to get in (again). Uugghhh. I'm so confused. College is not what I thought it'd be.
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