College 9/15/2001
Yeah so I just called the pizza place. They said they're trying to put the money back on my card. Um, no, you WILL put the money back on my card...I paid for something that wasn't delivered.
To top off everything, I lost $20. I had it last night and now I cannot find it. I must've dropped it or something. So now I have to pull out another $20 from my fucking savings account.
I dunno, this stuff wouldn't have bothered me so much if something just didn't happen. See, one of the girls, Rachel, told me that she was going to get her nose pierced. She was going to go with one of her friends, Stefanie. I said, "Oh that's so awesome, I want to get my third holes." She asked, "Do you want to come with us?" and I said, "Sure, I'd love to." They said that they were getting a ride from Paris, this sophomore down the hall and that we had to wait twenty minutes for him to get ready. I said OK, and went back into my room to look for the fucking twenty bucks. Barely ten minutes later I'm getting ready to leave, I hear Rachel ask, "Where did that girl go?" (meaning me, I'm assuming, because I was the only girl who offered to go). Stefanie says, "Forget her, let's just go." I was standing right inside my room, about a step away from the hallway. They went to go and get Paris and left five minutes later.
Forget her, is what they said. Forget me. Who cares anyway, right? Why bother with me? Jessa, the girl who I was hanging out with last week sure doesn't. I called her on Tuesday and she never answered. On Thursday I got rhough but she didn't seem particularly eager to stay in touch. Lindsey and Erica, Jennelle and Evelyn, Rachel and Stefanie, the boys on my hall, none of them care. Allison came in my room a few minutes ago to tell me about a party she went to with her friends. Well, instead of telling me about parties that you went to, who don't you ask me to come? I've said to her more than once, "Hey, let's go out tonight."
I thought I could tough it out, but I guess I'm not a true loner. I hate being alone, and I resent the fact that everyone just seems to have so many friends that they couldn't use one more. I feel sick. My major event of the day is to go to CVS. Plus I have to call my mother to tell her about the lost money so she doesn't flip out when I take out more...Fuck college, it sucks.
Phobia of the Day: Chrematophobia- Fear of money
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