Failed Experiment (Con'd) 6/24/2001
Another smaller contributor to my bad mood is my friends. Some of the stuff isn't their fault, but it bothers me anyway. I know I'm not perfect, but my friends do some really stupid things that just piss me off. Whenever they plan a trip to go somewhere, they have a really bad tendency of leaving me out of things. Like for prom weekend, they all went to NYC without me. Granted, I didn't go to prom, but that doesn't mean that I wanted to stay home for prom weekend. I'll always get invited to graduation/birthday parties because, hell, they're getting presents. Maybe they don't do it consciously, but it hurts anyway.
Work is another problem. My friends work crazy hours. I called Sonia last week and asked her when she had a day off and she simply replied, "I don't." This week, she had Thursday off, but I forgot to call her. It doesn't matter anyway. She has a boyfriend now, which means I get to be ignored until the relationship is over. Sonia and I have been friends since ninth grade; she's the most like me, physically and mentally. Problem is, that whenever she goes out with I guy I get virtually ignored until the relationship is over. I've spoken to her about this (several times) but nothing's changed. She's been going out with her current boyfriend for a few months now, so we haven't really talked in awhile.
Panama is cool, but we're polar opposites. She's brilliant, but did absolutely no work in high school, so she's going to Suffolk Community College. She's totally unambitious; stupid things like clothes and cars are important to her while her future and college are just forgotten. She's fun to hang out and joke with, but as I'm getting older, it's not as fun anymore. She goes to work from early/mid afternoon till late at night. When I start my job, I'll be working from 8:30 am till 3:30 pm. Then, I may stay after to watch the latchkey kids till
5:00 p.m. because you get like $25 an hour, or something like that. So by the time I get home, everyone else is at work. Even now when I am home, Kala, Sonia, and Panama are always working.
Alex called me last week surprisingly. She's a sweet girl, but we've never been close. We hang out in school, but almost never during the weekends or summer. Anyway, it was at 8:30 at night. The movie we wanted to see started at nine. My mom would've had to drive us, which would've caused another fight between my mother and I. So I couldn't go. Alex was working most of the week, and can't hang out until sometime next week. As of right now, JOhn is at the movies, Becca is with her sorority "sisters" and her boyfriend, and I'm sitting here typing away on a computer. Yes, I am definitely in a bad mood. I 'm feeling a little better though, so I think I'll keep writing.
(To be continued)
Loading comments...