5w5d in Baby Stuff, Part 3

I had the most horrible dream last night. It was so vivid. I’m really scared. Sometimes when I have dreams like this, they come true. I’m hoping it was just a projection of my fear instead of my body sending me a warning. My body warned me through dreams every time I was pregnant, so sometimes I do put stock into my dreams.

So far I have no reason to worry. Yesterday I felt a little off after I had been walking around thrift stores with my mom and I wasn’t drinking enough water. I sat down and rested and drank water and it made me sick (everything that hits my stomach makes me sick) and I did start to feel better. But I still have the achiness. I know it’s normal to have. It doesn’t hurt, it’s just dull aches in my pelvic area.

I’m sure everything is fine. The hardest part is not knowing if it truly is or not. Pregnancy is a high anxiety experience in a lot of ways; it’s full of uncertainties and requires faith. I struggle with that.