Breaking Point... in Fresh Start...

I’m really at my breaking point this week.

I haven’t really seen F. And when I asked him today if I should just stop asking him to hang out he said yes. So I said ok done and unfriended him on fb.

V still won’t leave me alone. He’s determined that he’s in love with me and I guess figures that I’ll feel the same eventually. Nope that’s not how it works. And at this point I really just want to be left the fuck alone.

And as if my love life is not stressful enough… one of my cats had a stroke on Tuesday. Apparently he has a rare blood disorder where his bone marrow produces too many red blood cells. His blood got too thick and threw a clot. So he had a stroke. I took him to the emergency vet. I just got to bring him home today. He looks a lot better than he did, but I have to keep an eye on him. I have to give him part of a pill everyday to prevent clots. He still twitches just a tiny bit but at least his pupils are the same size now. It cost me $1500 And this is just the beginning of an unknown road.

And all I’m interested in doing is curling up in bed and crying. I am kinda miserable and wondering why I even exist currently.