To my regulars, thank you and I’m sorry for not being around much. Just the thought of writing, putting the laptop on my lap and typing or on the bed and reaching or sitting at a table… any movement really causes me pain… I’m in hell.
I just barely had the money last month through borrowing from 3 different sources to see the homeopathist that can hopefully put me on the path to wellness where every other doctor has failed, but because of what happened and being forced to cancel my appt, I’m now in even more financial restraints.
Spending more time away from seeing someone means, I need to buy food, more meds and the things I’m currently taking which have, to date just barely kept me out of the hospital, yet at times I should have gone to the ER and refused to go in. I’m approaching such a place again and it sucks.
I have no income, no savings am unable to work and not on disability, hell… look how long it’s taken me to write and that is not a thing of desire, but discomfort (physically mostly). To make matters worse… I see a primary care Dr. at a sliding scale clinic. It costs me $25 to go in and my prednisone through there is discounted as well. I had to go in to see the Dr for 2 reasons.
- I came down with bronchitis
- I needed a refill on the prednisone
The latter became an issue. She wrote the prescription (after a stern conversation) but is refusing to write anymore, insisting that I see another specialist.
No insurance, no work, no income and the gastroenterologist cost $175 and the cost of my meds will increase as well (the prednisone alone more than doubled in price). Money that was to be used to see someone that can actually help me, I had to throw away just to stay on a medication I’m dying to get off of.
So now, as sick as I am and desperate to get well; I’m down over $600 from where I was last month. By the time July is over, I’ll be down nearly $200 more (which is almost everything I had!) All this just to maintain how miserable I am! How the fuck am I going to recoup this money?
Not to mention that this is for just this one appointment! There’s no guarantee that whatever I’m given will work or work right away, either way it’ll be several months before I can work again and there will be a couple of follow up visits, so all these financial issues I’m having now, I’m going to have again 6-8 weeks after my appointment and then a couple months after that. All this before I have any income… and let’s not forget that I had to sell my best lenses (which I relied on to make money). :/ Ugh… Kill me now.
Aside from all of this, I suffer with so many side-effects (check out the list online) from the Prednisone; I’m losing control of my mind. I already suffer with major depression, that’s worsening… I already suffer with insomnia… that’s worsening. My bones ache, I can’t think straight… I am just hurting and crestfallen.
On the bright side, it was stormy yesterday and on my deathbed I’ll find a way to get outside and experience it. Unfortunately there was a lot of rain with these storms, so I couldn’t get any lightning shots, plus (because of my health I couldn’t spend that much time waiting). All in all it wasn’t easy, but I got these shots.
Thunder in the distance, maybe 10 - 12 miles away and approaching.
The next two are actually very rare. In all my years of stormchasing, I’ve only seen this a few times where the lower level cumulonimbus separates in such a way from it’s upper level cirrus counterpart that it literally leaves a puzzle piece design behind. It’s quite extraordinary.
The rain came swiftly, so I only got a couple shots ahead of it, unfortunately no shelf clouds.
And my personal favorite from this set. (Perhaps because it’s representative of how I’m feeling).
I shall do my best to read / comment in the next day and catch up with you all.
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