Visits thru fb in Plan B

I feel basically in limbo until I get to Ohio. Anxiety, stress, overwhelmed, sad are just to name a few things I feel at the moment. I was on fb this a.m. and all of a sudden I see a post from Jerri taking one of her many funny tests she use to take all the time. This one was on what are you most afraid of. It was mouses. It posted on Sharon’s fb page as a share from Jerri’s page. On her page there is no such test. Sharon got a text message from Jerri too. But there were no words. I know Jerri did not plan on dying. There was no prep work for this journey. It just happened like a sneeze. She planned on going camping.
Now that weeks have passed and this trip is coming up I am feeling so overwhelmed. Not so much the flying part but the driving part. I haven’t been to Ohio in 30+ years. I rented a car. To put someone out to take me to the airport on monday so early is just not me. I will be back here at 11’sh. Then I have monday and tues. to recoup from the trip.
I think I need a doctors visit to get on some kind of medication to handle my anxiety. It is starting to effect my life and that includes my job. On sunday I froze and I admit it. I do not want to be incapable of not doing my already stressed out job because of what I am going thru. Sounds crazy. I know. So. I have to do something because it is taking over and I either feel one of two things. Depressed or anxious. All I want to do is be at home and when I am here all I want to do is lay in bed and watch tv. That is not me. I don’t like it. So. Make an appt. and see what happens. Now I have things to do and hopefully I can get them done in an easy peasy way…