Makin It By Stayin Low.... in Plan B

I am so grateful for the rain in so many ways. I welcome the clouds like a long lost friend. Monday and Tuesday I took naps. Monday I stayed home all day. Tuesday I ventured out and it was hard. I tried to get into the wrong car. Ya. So work keeps me going and so does my sister Sharon. We talk alot which we always did anyway now it sometimes a couple times a day. Jan well she headed south for a few days and now she is back up here. I know I won’t hear from her so I just take it as that.
I was on amazon and went to the harley site and they had all kinds of stuff. One thing I did was put an app on my phone thru amazon that makes my phone ring with a harley starting up and driving off. You put your finger on the bike and listen to the sound then pick the bike. They even had one from the early 1900’s. The one I have sounds like it is starting and takes off slow. I like it. It’s a Jerri thing.
I got a message from Steph her daughter and the coroner thinks it was from heart failure. He wants to do a tox report to see if the hepC drug had anything to do with how she died. She was on a drug for hep C. That messes up all your organs big time. Ever since her husband died (2 years earlier ) she never really recovered. The only soothing part out of all of this besides the rain is that she is now with her husband and Dad and Mom. We are just muddling thru our days trying to get thru them the best we know how. I hope she didn’t suffer. When I see so many patients at work who are tube fed, mitted up, cathed and have no idea what the hell is going on and then to have Jerri pass the way she did well there is no choice. It is just the idea that I won’t be able to talk to her anymore. I do listen to the vids on fb but that isn’t the same. Her birthday is the 12’th of this month and Mom’s is the 11’th. Gemini’s.
I am tired. Going to shower. Make coffee and call it a night. I am exhausted. Work just wipes me out so much. Now more than ever.