Where Is Your Heart? Part 2 in Just Moments

~Since my last entry I’ve been thinking a lot about the things that I wrote. I do focus a lot of the different men that have been/are a part of my life and how each of them have hurt me in the past. But my heart has been affected by so much more than just boys.

~My family is a huge part of my life. They have impacted my life in so many ways. They have always loved me through everything. I mean I don’t have a messed up family life or anything not like some of the stories that you hear out there. My family is really normal, but one thing that has always surprised me is how much we have been there for each other. Now we aren’t the type of family that keeps in touch every day but we see each other usually at least once a month sometimes more depending what’s going on. And no matter how many days are between us, we all just pick up where we left off. After my break up with G a couple years ago, if it wasn’t for my family, I’m not sure how I would have been able to get through it. I’m not saying it wasn’t difficult, but it was easier to know that my family went out of their way to make me feel included in some activities.

~So what I’m trying to say is that what usually affects our heart isn’t what always affects us. Like I said before it’s easy to focus on the people that have hurt us and shaped us because of the pain and guilt and anything else that goes along with it. But there are also people who have been a positive influence on the heart. And they deserve to be noticed. Along with close friends and role models. Those are the people who we should let affect our hearts. And sometimes they won’t be in a good way. Only the people closest to us are able to hurt you but that isn’t a reason not to let them. Not everyone will hurt you, not everyone will let you down. Some people will, but most won’t. And let them know before its too late. I’m not always the greatest at telling people especially my family how much I love them, but I’m taking the opportunity now to do so. Even though they won’t be reading this, none of them even know that I keep an online journal, but that doesn’t matter because maybe I’ll influence someone else. <3