Had a "holiday" lunch (what holiday, at this point?) with White Castle (and no, not at White Castle) and then studied the rest of the afternoon. Why does studying make me so sleepy?
Now just killing time before a very late dinner. And back to work tomorrow.
Also have therapy tomorrow. I need to figure out a way to tell her that, again, I couldn't find a way to make myself go to church. I don't feel welcome at them. Not because of them, but because I feel like going through with this divorce is shameful. I know that I'm forgiven, but that doesn't mean it's so easy to forgive myself. I know all the stuff I'm supposed to say…if God can forgive me, who am I to say I'm not forgivable? But it's not that easy. Or maybe it is, I don't know, but I haven't gotten there yet.
So I didn't go. And I don't know when I can. Churches are hard on other levels as well since I have a hard time being social and fitting in. Or is that just an excuse?
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