Worried about the crazy bird. in psycho shit

Sitting on the train to the far north to visit my old man.

Was on a trip to Tallin with a previous date. Think I need to sort my thinking. Jonna is still beautiful. She is unemployed and visiting a shrink and poor. I payed for the trip, her boozing and dinner. She said that we should share a flat. I said nothing. I said nothing because I do believe it is a bad idea. She noticed that and asked forcefully why I did not want to live with her.

I said partly correct that I have a very bad experience of sharing flat with women. I did not say that I believe she is a bit too unstable to plan an organized future together with.

It felt good when we were together for 4 years ago. It felt good this time also. Sometimes.

This morning I woke up early as usual. She was asleep. According to her I woke her up with being loud. I was not. She got furious and answered my morning with “shut up”. I said nothing. I just went up and had a breakfast by myself.

Still I was pissed. I had payed for the whole trip, she got in for free. Seriously can you complain about something you payed absolutely nothing for???? When back in the cabin she was still pissed. I was the same.

Then she took her big bag and went away. I was still back in the cabin to check so I did not forgot something important, then I could not find her.

Waited for her at the gate and elevator and did not find her. Oh well. Was sure that she had stormed away in anger for something I got no clue what so ever about.
Felt kind of a relief. Now I sure as hell NEVER am going to share a flat with that maniac. I took the train home.

Then I got a message saying. “She waited for me at the elevator, the gate and that I have left her there”. She also texted that I have made her very sad and that she was down before. And why did I not answer her call. I actually saw one missed call from her.

I called her back, no answer. Called again and two more times with same result. Texted her back and explained the situation. No reply.

I do care for her. And now she is probably miserable and might do some crazy things.
Oh fuck, why can’t she be a normal person?? I am worried what she might do, get anorexia again? Just get piss drunk? Hurt herself?

I should never have had that trip with her. It was she who said we should go when I mentioned I wanted to see the Jugend-architecture there. I could have refused thou. She bought louds of cheap vodka, have she become an alcoholic? But she stayed pretty sober the whole trip.
The problem is that I have not got a very good idea what to do now. Want to know if she is OK.

Have I messed something up????