Straight Eight. in Attempt at cutting off Porn and Masturbation

Day 8 without wacking off is on track.

So far it hasn’t been that hard. Pun intended.

Things get a bit dicey when my current lady friend, and an ex lady friend are both texting me sexy messages.

I admit that my hand tends to wander down south for just a little touch, but I quickly pull it away and say “NO, BAD DOG, STOP IT.” and that has worked so far lol

I told the ex about having a bit of issues down there, and that it hasn’t been up to standards lately, so I decided to not wack off for as long as I can, and hopefully everything should reset to normal in 90 days.

I figured this would scare her off, since I was under the impression she just needed to get a bit of physical fun.
Wrong, she says she couldn’t care less about that, she just wants me to come over and watch movies with her like we used to, maybe cuddle. She added that she’s on some anti-depressents which pretty much kills off her libido as well, so it’s not an issue.
I’m not sure how I’m going to handle this yet, because she is only a half an hour away, and I do enjoy cuddling and sharing a few kisses with her. However, I don’t want to cheat on my present lady friend. I do have pretty strong feelings for her, and I might actually feel like shit if I cheated. And yeah, cuddling and kissing would be cheating.
I think.

But anyway. So… day 8. Fucking whoa. This is pretty much uncharted seas right there.

Not looking at sexy pictures or porn has been a breeze so far. Not even tempted.

Jerking off is a bit more tempting now and then, and occasionally, I get the “Oh shit, I don’t think I can fight it much longer,” feeling, but it goes away pretty quick, when I attempt to take my mind off off it.

No flat line yet, although it should be coming any day now.

Basically, I’m waking up with some great boners, that I do have to just very briefly touch, because who doesn’t enjoy the feeling of a hard cock in their hands, even if it’s their own lol
But no stroking or anything sexual. Just a greeting of sorts.

The boners don’t last more then a minute or two after I get out of bed though.

It might be a psychological thing, in the wishing department, but I feel as if the mental fog that I’ve felt for about a decade is actually cracking a bit. Well, what the no jerk off crowd refers to as a mental fog.
To me it’s more like I’ve lost my vitality or life essence during the past ten years, which makes me feel like a zombie just going through motions.

This feeling might be cracking a bit. Although when I had vitality, I was jerking off every day as well, so not sure what that has to do with anything, but we shall see.
However, back in those days, there was no internet and definitely no internet porn to fry the brain on. Maybe that’s the issue.

I do think I have a bit of an interment addiction, even if I don’t have the porn addiction. I spend hours on line, even to the point of running out of interesting things to check on, and just click on shit for no reason after awhile.

However, one can’t really give up everything all at once, because that would surely lead to failure.

I mean it sounds great to give up internet (maybe just allow an hour a day for basic shit) stop jerking off, stop smoking, give up caffeine, and even go to the gym. But realistically I think doing that all at once would be counter productive because the withdrawal would be impossible to deal with realistically.

So, it’s one thing at a time, one day at a time for now.

EDIT: A little while after I wrote this entry, I hit the “Seven day high,” I think. Felt like I’m on top of the world for awhile. Still feeling the afterburn. Next should be the awesome crash and burn when everything feels like it goes to shit....but it’s expected.

Last updated February 25, 2017