ALONE in HUBBY

I always thought it would be wonderful to live alone! I could do what I want when I wanted. Was I ever wrong!!!!!! My hubby died in October so I have been alone ever since.

I am in Florida for the winter. I have been keeping very busy but in the end I still end up spending a lot of time alone. I spend a lot of time crying. Part of the reason of course is because I do miss my hubby. Another reason is that I don’t feel that great. My neuropathy drives me crazy. I am not sleeping well at all. I feel that I have no purpose. I have felt this way for a long time. Once I go home at the end of March I will try to do some volunteer work. I don’t want to involve my children in my financial affairs so I am trying to cope alone. Since I have never been good with money it isn’t easy.

I have many friends here and I do spend time with them but as I said I can’t be with them 24 hours a day.

I am so grateful to be here and not in the snow and cold up north.
I try to go swimming every weekday.
I am taking an art class. I have also started to paint in the spare bedroom.

I would love to hear from other women and how they coped. There are many widows here!!!!!! Some have found new “love.”

Maybe I will start spending more time here. I need some support. I always thought I was independent.

In July I am taking my grandson to Israel. We are going on a tour from our synagogue.

WHY CAN’T I BE CONTENT???????