lonely ....I think in diary

Everything I watch, hear, read or do makes me cry. I think I just self assessed that I am ..lonely.
I have been sick since Saturday morning and some days quite sick and nobody has come check on me. I have told at least 4 people I am sick. Kathleen says she is coming tomorrow. I am sick enough…normal sick on top of the fatigue passing out thing… that it has crossed my mind ‘What am I doing all this for?’ I am broke. Have $45 for the rest of the month and did not buy even enough groceries for the month. And my goddaughters wedding benefit social is in the city on the 18th.
I am …lonely…and discouraged....and wishing someone would look after me…and feeling like I can’t even without this last few days sick look after myself....and I feel uncared-for and alone in this.