second entry...just blah in diary

I don’t want to leave it a day because I do want to get it as part of my self care routine, but man I am tired.
I am having another one of those terrible can’t stay awake things. I am fighting it with all I have. If I lay down I am down for hours. If I fight it I fall asleep sitting here most times. If I fight it and don’t fall asleep it seems to pass. It passes after all 3, but it takes a big chunk out of my time. It is just not tired. I am thinking seizure or narcolepsy or something. Not cool.
It always happens between 6 and 9 at night. It does not differentiate if I have eaten or I have not, nor what I eat. It has nothing to do with blood sugar. It does not seem to matter how restful or unrestfull the night before’s sleep has been, and it does not seem consistently to follow a physically or mental harder day.
It just fucken sucks. Guess I will find out if I can swear here…lol