Dave (8:54:29 PM): oh man
Dave (8:54:35 PM): i love this book
Me (8:54:35 PM): what?
Dave (8:56:28 PM): "The American political system is like a gigantic Mexican Christmas fiesta. Each party is a huge pinata.... The American voter is blindfolded and given a stick. The voter then swings the stick wildly in every direction, trying to hit a political candidate on the head and knock some sense into the silly bastard."
Me (8:56:44 PM): um
Dave (8:57:34 PM): its called "parliament of whores"
Me (8:57:50 PM): haha
Dave (8:58:25 PM): the guy is basically a libertarian complaining about the american political system
Me (8:58:36 PM): fun time
Me (9:01:32 PM): aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Dave (9:01:40 PM): health?
Me (9:01:42 PM): no
Me (9:01:45 PM): life
Dave (9:02:16 PM): here's the thing: relax and live it up
Me (9:02:36 PM): I'm pretty sure that goes against my entire OCD type nature
Dave (9:03:09 PM): if you are worrying about something enough that it is making you miserable, it's not worth worrying about
Me (9:03:56 PM): remember that time that I killed our band?
Dave (9:04:04 PM): no?
Me (9:04:05 PM): I don't want to do that again
Me (9:04:08 PM): you know what
Me (9:04:16 PM): I don't even feel like talking about it
Me (9:04:18 PM): I just feel like eating
Me (9:04:21 PM): and swearing
Dave (9:04:21 PM): what?
Me (9:04:24 PM): a whole fucking lot
Dave (9:04:29 PM): when was the band killed?
Me (9:04:38 PM): when adam and I broke up
Me (9:04:41 PM): you don't remember that?
Dave (9:04:48 PM): not really
Me (9:04:49 PM): how we had one really awkward performance
Me (9:04:58 PM): and then never played together again
Dave (9:05:14 PM): that band wasn't really going anywhere anyways?
Dave (9:05:24 PM): if you feel like swearing, then swear
Me (9:05:35 PM): and also
Me (9:05:36 PM): my parents
Me (9:05:42 PM): are jerks
Me (9:05:48 PM): well
Me (9:05:53 PM): my dad is a jerk
Me (9:05:58 PM): and my mom is just very closedminded
Me (9:06:08 PM): in a church-lady type way
Me (9:06:24 PM): and neither of those things are good for the whole us getting along thing
Me (9:06:27 PM): I have figured out
Me (9:06:34 PM): that we have never gotten along
Me (9:06:40 PM): it's just that we're all nonconfrontational
Me (9:07:00 PM): so we all don't get along on the inside
Me (9:07:17 PM): and just keep it there until it blows up every five years or so
Dave (9:07:45 PM): with my family it's more we have small fights everyday
Dave (9:08:27 PM): you can't let things fester
Me (9:08:34 PM): well we did
Dave (9:09:01 PM): biting your tongue is usually just biting yourself in the ass
Me (9:09:23 PM): i dunno
Me (9:09:36 PM): it just seems like there's nothing I can do about the fact that we don't get along
Me (9:09:42 PM): I do everything right
Me (9:09:52 PM): I act in a polite and respectful way
Me (9:10:03 PM): and express my feelings in a positive manner when I am upset
Me (9:10:06 PM): and all that shit
Me (9:10:17 PM): when all i've really needed to do all these years is say
Me (9:10:41 PM): shut up. you don't get me, you'll never get me, I'm not going to pretend to like you, leave me alone
Me (9:10:54 PM): like a cliched teenager
Me (9:11:00 PM): I am a cliched teenager
Dave (9:11:04 PM): and?
Dave (9:11:11 PM): is this a problem?
Me (9:11:24 PM): this wasn't even my fault
Me (9:11:29 PM): I didn't even do anything
Me (9:11:48 PM): and my dad was just like, "sometimes I don't want to live with you, we should just move without you"
Me (9:11:55 PM): and slammed my own fucking door in my face.
Me (9:12:05 PM): hard.
Dave (9:13:13 PM): i think he was fishing for an emotional response
Me (9:13:32 PM): well
Me (9:13:40 PM): my emotional response was to try to be logical
Me (9:13:51 PM): and then secretly freak out in my room for like five hours
Me (9:14:19 PM): it was about me wanting to be left alone in the first place
Me (9:14:27 PM): I was trying to ask nicely
Me (9:14:39 PM): "can we talk somewhere other than my room"
Me (9:14:43 PM): I don't know
Me (9:14:49 PM): I don't even know what happened
Me (9:15:23 PM): and the worst part is, even though I have like, a real legitimate problem that real people have to deal with
Me (9:15:43 PM): I am still equally, if not more, caught up in my stupid rich spoiled emo kid problem
Me (9:15:57 PM): to which there is a very simple solution which I am just too retarded to follow
Me (9:16:04 PM): um
Me (9:16:15 PM): what I meant to say was
Me (9:16:22 PM): fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Dave (9:16:56 PM): stop worrying about how to label you situation
Me (9:17:06 PM): yes
Me (9:17:09 PM): yes you are right
Me (9:17:22 PM): I think it's an irrefutable fact though
Me (9:17:32 PM): that if I were less retarded it would not be a problem
Dave (9:18:14 PM): if you really think that you are a "stupid rich spoiled emo kid" then that is what you are
Dave (9:18:31 PM): but don't worry about how other people think of you
Me (9:19:33 PM): alright
Me (9:19:55 PM): sorry to dump this stuff on you
Me (9:20:03 PM): we should talk about something interesting and not whiney now
Me (9:20:08 PM): ready
Me (9:20:09 PM): go.
Dave (9:20:46 PM): actually, I ignore my own problems by listening to other people's and complaining about the government
Me (9:20:54 PM): aha
Me (9:20:59 PM): does that work well for you?
Dave (9:21:16 PM): well...
Dave (9:21:23 PM): sort of
Dave (9:21:32 PM): my problems never really get resolved
Me (9:21:36 PM): hm
Me (9:21:38 PM): well
Me (9:22:09 PM): ...mine get resolved very slowly
Dave (9:22:22 PM): i've noticed that I haven't felt any real emotion in the past couple years
Dave (9:22:34 PM): it's odd actually
Me (9:22:41 PM): what do you mean by "real emotion"?
Dave (9:23:10 PM): i haven't gotten mad enough to fight anyone
Dave (9:23:45 PM): and my grandfather died i just kinda thought "hmmm, i should feel sad."
Me (9:23:55 PM): I think that's pretty normal
Me (9:24:11 PM): I think the expectations for how you're supposed to feel when somebody dies are pretty unrealistic
Dave (9:24:54 PM): mostly i've just been apathetic about everything
Me (9:25:24 PM): any reason?
ìDaveî is away from the computer as of 9:26:33 PM.
I'll explain later.
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