I am thinking about leaving open diary.
Because this started as a way for me to look at things as they are, and it's turned into a way for me to make them into something more. Basically, this whole diary is a lie, and I am always, always overdramatic about everything.
I am sick of being emo. I am sick of everyone I know being a character I have to create, and my life being a plot. I am sick of being obsessed with this. Things need to be a lot more real than they are. I should just try to live, and be honest, and not be a jerk. I have realized that I need to devote a lot more of my energy towards not being a jerk.
Maybe I will start over on a new site, and just take a different approach. Or maybe I will go back to writing in notebooks for nobody but myself. Or maybe I will stop recording my life altogether and just live it for a while. Or maybe I will not leave at all. Maybe this is just me being emo again.
I think this is about Molly. I think I have to figure out what's going on.
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