Greg wants drum major. I believe he could be a somewhat serious candidate. I also believe, based on the way he treats his current underlings, that his leadership would pretty much be a reign of terror.
This makes six of us: Me, Eric, Greg, Adam, Sarah, and Dave.
Yeah, Dave wants it. He says he doesn't most of the time, but it's obvious he does. I think he feels guilty about going for it when I want it so badly. Most of the time he seems to support me wholeheartedly over Eric, but once in a while he nervously half-jokes about getting it himself. I know that it would be incredibly easy for me to intimidate/guilt-trip him into just not going out for it. It would increase my chances. But... It would also be evil. I'm in a bit of a dilemma about it. And the fact that I am even in a dilemma about it scares me slightly. Am I getting too power hungry? I mean, Code Cobalt was one thing, but this is Dave we're talking about. If he wants it and Mr. Thomas decides he deserves it, shouldn't I be happy for him? Like I've always said I would be for Eric?
Would I be happy for Eric?
I just want so badly to be important in the band. Really important. Think about it - If the drum major's awesome, it makes everyone else better too. If the drum major sucks, everyone sucks. It all depends on that one person - someone responsible and respected who conforms to the highest standards of good musicianship. I want to deserve that. I want that to be me. Band has been my life for three years, and I've tried my hardest to be the best marcher and musician I can be. But I've never really been aknowledged as anything special within it. This is my chance.
I've been considering talking to Eric about sharing it. I've mentioned it briefly, but if we actually agreed upon it and both mentioned it to Mr. Thomas in May, I think we'd both be a lot safer.
Hm. This whole thing reminds me a little too much of Macbeth, except that there are no witches and I haven't killed Alice.
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