how I almost completely snapped on someone today in Procrastination Journal

Went to an interview today, and on the tour we ran into some woman. Idk.
A bunch of millennials, dressed in suits, walking around a children’s hospital. Obviously we’re on our interview day.

This woman, still don’t know who she was, she says hi to us and she’s very loud.

And then she says to me (at me), “And we have some color!”

Before I can take a deep breath to say “excuse me!?” She goes, “I love your blouse!” Yeah Oh. ooooh. okay, my purple blouse.

Maybe she was a doctor or a nurse, or someone, because she sure as hell saved her own life today.

I didn’t even try to keep the professional neutrality, and really showed my consternation and laughed with a few of the girls who were nearby and also heard it. Gosh.

Like, okay. I already go to the websites and count the POC residents, and the first thing I do when I go somewhere is see if there are any black people there. I’m VERY USED to being the only black person. It’s cool. That’s why I work on representation with the kiddos, and why Doc McStuffins is a big deal.

And when a black person sees you, in your white coat or she’s a doctor interviewing you, they’ll let you know they see you. “It’s so good to see you here!” Or just straight up tell you that they’re proud of you.

But oh my gosh, I don’t know whether to laugh or be mad.

Of course I went straight to thinking about race. Poc have the race consciousness part of their brains extra developed because they have to USE IT a lot more often than white folks.

I’m still not convinced that she was talking about my purple blouse.

Last updated November 03, 2016