11:36 PM
I feel like shit. And it’s not just today either. I’ve been feeling like this for the past couple of weeks now. I’m congested to shit, busy with work and have been lonely…I hate it. I wish everything wasn’t so depressing. I don’t like how certain girls have a hidden agenda. and how they know that they got you by the balls. Fuck it, I don’t even know where i’m going with this. It’s not like I care either. Who the hell even reads my stuff? It’s not like I’m some famous blogger or youtuber that’s gotten huge and they’ve already got some sort of fanbase. I’m just a normal 24 year old male, who sadly, hasn’t been in a serious relationship for an absurd amount of time. And who also gets too delusional when he sees or meets a cute girl. Loneliness really drives people crazy, huh? I’d like to think I’m not crazy, but I am. I’m angry at too many stupid things. which, for starters, not healthy. What do I hate, you ask?
My old friends, my job, online schooling, my allergies, falling in love too easily, the fact my dad worries too much, how my sister literally complains about almost everything and one of best friends cares too much about how I act. God! This is the dumbest shit and I shouldn’t care about it. But deep inside, it bothers me so much. Like, sometimes I feel like losing my shit. Like, throwing my fists in someone face. I can’t stand it! But, that aside, if there thing that it’s been on my mind is a girl. She’s seems like a decent girl that won’t lie. I don’t know that though since people are so ready to change at any moment. They can easily fake certain personalities or even certain emotions. And because the “hard working” people at my job, I can barely talk to her. Whatever…I’m leaving that job soon anyway. It’s not like she’ll miss me either. She’s probably got somebody else in her eyes anyway.
Yeah, not much else that’s on my mind anyway. Screw it, I’m done. I’m off to sleep to wake up to another shitty boring work day. Thanks for reading, if anybody even is…
Nick
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