It is going 2 B different... in Plan B
- Oct. 22, 2016, 5:12 p.m.
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This entry was going to go one way and now it’s going another. Welcome to my mind. Good luck. I work in a hospital. I just got my one year pin. Can’t believe it’s been one year. Sometimes it feels like 3 years ago. I am blessed and I know it. Every single day.
I look at situations I wonder why things happen the way they do and being a mortal I have no clues. But the questions are endless even tho I do have respect of the doctors I still ask…everyone and anyone from all fields from dialysis tech to heart sonogram peoples. I can’t help myself. I find the human body incredible. I meet patients who smoked 55 years, drank like a fish, skinny as all get out and healthy as hell. Then I meet some one who is 400 pounds double amputee and a hot mess still chuggin along… Then the cancer patients. That is when the questions come out my mouth before I can capture all of them. I can’t help myself. It’s like WTF? Questions.
One gene. One gene fucks up everything. So far as layman’s terms go here is how I sorta figured it out. Everyday. Every single day our bodies fight off dna that do not belong to us. Every day we win. Until that one day the body fights and fights and it looses. To one lil gene. That gene mutates faster than bunnies. Then it takes over something. Anything. It doesn’t matter what it’s grubby lil hands hits on. I know. My Dad who I love more than anything died of pancreatic cancer. Diagnosed April 30. Died on June 30’th. I am just lost for words.
Here is the thing that gets me. We have these fuck wads walking around with NOTHING wrong with them. AT. ALL. Then you have these people. Everyday people workin people just trying to make it. Not asking for anything. Just glad to get home after a hard day on the job. A good meal. Ect. Then BAM. It’s like WTF? Why them and not the ass hole who was nothing but and ass hole from when ever get a way with this?
I know in my heart of hearts that Mom and Dad are with me along with Grandpa and Grandma. I “know it”....
I just want to know why for these other people who don’t deserve this plate of shit that was brought to them for no good reason other than being good people. Is it a test? To see how strong they are?
One thing out of allllllllllllll this shit I only learned in my life. I have become a DNR and a donor. Other than that. Make weed legal and fuck the rest of the shit. Good night.
Ferret Mom ⋅ October 26, 2016