Wednesday, June 19th 2016 at: 6:00PM
For the first 3rd of the day I was completely numb, couldn’t feel anything at all but I knew I felt a little sad. It’s my defense mechanism, last night I was really numb too, and I actually threw up last night and had broken sleep. I started listening to a song that I love but it makes me cry, Neverland, it makes me cry when it says “Peter pan’s what they call me, I promise that you’ll never be lonely”. the second part that makes me cry says “I am a lost boy in Neverland, usually hanging out with Peter Pan, and when we’re bored we play in the woods, always on the run from captain hook, run, run, lost boy they say to me, away from all this reality.” Because I see myself as a lost boy, I am still a child inside and I cannot give that up, also another reason I broke down and started crying is because I don’t have that friend type like peter pan. I always feel lonely, even when I am with my friends. I have this void in my heart that just cannot be filled. So I just broke down and cried for a good while and then I went and took a nap and this is where the weird dream came in.
I wrote this down right after waking up so it will have spelling and grammer errors “This dream is nuts let me tell you, I laid down for a nap today and this is what happened.
My mother and I just got back home from doing something with her husband (they are separated) and I went into my room and I was saying something bad about her husband or something like that and mother said “if you keep saying that stuff i’m going to call the police and say you tried to rape me.” I just ignored her and turned my tv up louder but I heard her calling the police and she kept saying over and over about how I tried kissing her lips and I was hitter her hands or holder her hands down. I walked outside because I couldn’t believe she was doing something like this and then I heard her call over to her neighbor and she told her to kiss her lips and slap her hands and make her looked bruised up. I was yelling at them saying that all this was stupid, and it didn’t make any sense as to why she would be acting that way. I looked over and seen the cops coming, guns drawn and yelling for me to get down I just said “Yeah yeah, I get it” and I laid down on my stomach and put my hands behind my back, and the first cop came and looked at me and said I fit the description and they are about to cuff my hands when I try saying this all didn’t make any sense when halfway through the sentence I wake up and I was sleep talking it. man I tell you this was the realist dream I have ever had.”
I told my mom about this dream after waking up and she told me that as I was laying down (already asleep) she told me about there being 2 cop cars outside.
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