Does anyone do morning pages AND journal here? Or even somewhere else? I’m finding it hard to do both and I just want some opinions as to what has worked for others?
So. You want to know about the crazy psychopath, SAM? Not sure how much I want to delve into it right now, but let’s just say, I’m pretty scared of this guy now. Yesterday, [A] and I went for a walk on the trail and after we were done, we looked at this website that someone has created about him (and ONLY about him) to list out all the way he is a criminal.
On this website are listed six felony charges and six civil cases against this guy. Plus his mug shot. Plus some other scary shit.
Now, to be fair, he did tell me that I was going to find some horrible shit online about him, and he was right. He also asked me not to judge until I’d spoken to him first and asked him about each and every detail. He also asked me not to text him questions and not to ask them over the phone. He asked me to do/say everything in person so that there wouldn’t be any confusion.
Dudes, I’m NOT going to do that. I find it much better to just opt out of this whole thing. There’s no need to ask any more questions. With the criminal history and the cracking of my back and the fact that he left his wife and the way he talked to the wait staff and the scary directions he gave me when he kissed me. AND the insane-looking photo he just added to his Bumble profile....there’s NO WAY IN HELL I want to be face-to-face with this guy ever again!
It’s over. Done. Not only bullet dodged, but possibly being murdered, too?
I don’t know. I’m thinking of taking a break from the Tinder/Bumble scene (which I have affectionately now termed “Tumble” because that’s really what happens, right? I no longer want to be one of the thousands and thousands of women out there just ripe for the picking, using and abusing, because that’s what this whole thing has turned out to be.
Sure, it’s GREAT for the guys because they have their pick from young to old and if there’s one that’s deemed too difficult or too opinionated or too conservative or too…WHATEVER, then there are literally thousands upon thousands of others to choose from. I suppose it could be the same on the other side of the coin, but it just seems like the pickings are so easy for men who just don’t even give a shit. Why be tied down to one woman when there are so many out there who will give you anything you want?! In any combination you want. At pretty much any time you want it. It’s like the Amazon Prime Now of dating! You can have a blow job ordered up within the hour!
So, I’m taking a break. I’m over it right now - completely and utterly over it. Sure, it’s hard to find someone in real life without the help of an app, but I believe that if I take the time that I used to spend getting on the apps, swiping, having texting conversation, etc. and put it into physically getting out into the world, that things may open up ever so slightly. We’ll see. I’m not going to go all gung ho on going to bars or anything, but I have to find an alternative to this bullshit.
Okay, I need to make breakfast. All of this ranting has worked up my appetite. More to follow, I’m sure…
UPDATE! I’ve officially deleted all dating apps from my phone. It fees freeing! Goodbye, Pussy Shoppers!
Love,
GS
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