ptsd rape remembering in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

‘i remembered more of what happened to me the 3rd time. you know that smell that vitamins and pills have? like even if you haven’t opened the bottles you smell it? well i do/can anyway. yeah that’s what one of my drinks tasted like........cause even before the last time i used to get really drunk and it never tasted like that so.........it stands to reason that......yeah. ‘

it seems like a lot of things related to rape have been happening lately:
in april my mom i saw sweeney todd. his wife is raped. before that i thought about the SA more than i had in awhile. it was hard.
in march i had body memories. that’s also when i realised even though we’re told we should talk about it well.......we shouldn’t.
in dec. it’d been 3 yrs. since the last.
in oct. it’d been um.11 yrs. since the first.