SO FRUSTRATED in HUBBY

**HERE I AM AGAIN!!!!! I AM SO UPSET! I AM SO FRUSTRATED! I AM TRYING TO DO MY BEST BUT IT JUST ISN’T GOOD ENOUGH. I FINALLY DECIDED NOT TO TREAT MY HUBBY LIKE AN INVALID. IF I DO HE WILL NEVER GET BETTER. HE ALSO HAS MENTIONED THAT HE IS GETTING BORED, WANTS TO GO OUT ETC. SO WE HAVE BEEN GOING OUT ONCE A DAY FOR LUNCH AND/OR SUPPER. IT HAS BEEN WORKING OUT. HE IS VERY WEAK! I KEEP TELLING HIM THAT IF HE DOESN’T TAKE SMALL STEPS HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TAKE BIG STEPS AGAIN. I STILL THINK HE IS SUPER DEPRESSED AND NOT TRYING AT ALL. HE HAS NO INTEREST IN ANYTHING!!!!! I DON’T BLAME HIM BUT HE HAS NO CHOICE.
ANYHOW WHAT HAS UPSET ME TONIGHT IS OUR PRINTER. I JUST CANNOT GET IT TO WORK NO MATTER WHAT I DO. TONIGHT IT SHUT DOWN AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO START IT. I AM TRYING TO PRINT PICTURES FOR MY GRANDSON’S BAR MITZVAH WHICH IS ABOUT TWO MONTHS AWAY. MY SON HAS HELPED BUT HE IS NOT HERE NOW!!! I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL MORNING. I HATE BEING HELPLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE ADDED THAT I HAVE NEUROPATHY IN MY FEET AND IT IS MAKING ME CRAZY!! I AM ON MEDICATION BUT IT DOESN’T SEEM TO HELP. WHEN I MENTION IT TO THE DOCTOR SHE DOESN’T SAY MUCH. SHE DOESN’T WANT TO MAKE ANY CHANGES BECAUSE I HAVE ENOUGH GOING ON RIGHT NOW.
I AM ALSO NOT SLEEPING WELL. MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SLEEPING DURING THE DAY SO IT IS BECOMING A VICIOUS CIRCLE.
I HAVE STARTED SWIMMING FOUR TIMES A WEEK.
I PLAN TO GO TO ISRAEL WITH MY GRANDSON IN THE SUMMER IF IT IS SAFE!!!!! WILL IT EVER BE SAFE THERE?????????????????
I HAVE THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO BUT I JUST CAN’T GET OVER OTHER THINGS WHICH MAKE ME CRAZY!!!!