Seriously, I didn’t mean to come across as a cavalier asshole in my last entry. I care a lot about what you guys think for various reasons: (1) I know a lot of you in real life now; (2) I like honest feedback, so when you give it to me, I listen; (3) I just care, okay?
Work is stupid. Today, Pseudo-Boss became my official Boss. I’m fine with that because it now helps me with direction. It was super stupid when I was trying to work for two people who hate each other so much that they never communicated. I was taking direction from both and just floundering. The only bad thing about this whole situation is that it squeezes me out even more because New Boss is now directing my division and it used to be all under my area of responsibility. It’s a layer. Fine. Just tell me what you want me to do…
Meanwhile, I talked to a guy in HR at my dream company during lunch today. Don’t know that there’s a position open just yet, but I’m thinking that maybe, just maybe I might be able to squeak something out that’s unique. I’m very excited about the possibility! I have to come up with something brilliant to spark some conversation with the President of this part of the business! Hm…ideas…ideas.
What else is new?
I want real love.
I’ve figured out the Bulldog. Every time we get close to something that resembles dating and a relationship he backs way, way off. We spent some splendid times together this weekend. So of course, he’s not gonna let me misinterpret that as something more than what it is.
And that’s totally fair! He’s told me a million and one times that he doesn’t want a relationship like that.
I am annoyed with Bumble, Twitter, Happn, etc. I can’t keep up with them and every time I see someone who piques my interest, they write, then they disappear. I know I’m not the only one this happns to (heh), so screw it. For today anyway. Who does this even work for? Anyone?
Talked with SexyPants last night for about an hour. He’s like a friend now. I can’t even believe I almost married that guy and then he smashed my heart to pieces – and now we can have such friendly conversations on the phone (and in person!). He is just a sweet man. Yes, a cheater, and now he readily admits that he can’t be in a committed relationship (at least not right now), but he’d do anything for me if I needed it. I know this for a fact. And it’s nice to know that he’s got my back if I need him to. For example, the smoke detector dilemma…I talked to him about that and he was like, well of COURSE you could have spent the night at my place!! And no, he wasn’t even in town. And yes, I know that he would do this for nearly anyone because he’s just that kind of guy…and that’s what makes him even more likable.
Oh, to find a SexyPants who could be monogamous…
I’m trying to write a story for submission to the storytelling show in which [Athena] has performed and been a part of for a while now. It’s hard!! I thought what I would do is splice together some old, related entries from back in the OD days. So I’ve gone back to my files and found some of the entries that fit this particular theme, but they don’t just fit together like a puzzle piece. It’s going to take a lot of work to figure this out because it’s not just one story I want to tell. It’s a series of little stories that I think are some of my best stories. But then I worry that they are only funny to me!!! It’s a fun process, so even if I don’t get chosen for this show I think it will be worth the effort. We shall see.
I’ve got some other things going on that I don’t yet want to write about for fear of…incompletion? I will write as I get started. Hopefully it will help through the process.
Dieting sucks. But I have lost 3 lbs since the first of the year. At this rate, it will take me all year to get down to my goal, but that’s OK, I guess. I’m working out the AM before work and trying to get a good, long walk in 3X/week.
With that, I’m heading out soon so that I can walk in the dark with [Athena] tonight! Yay.
Ta-ta!
GS
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