Things are slowly improving. Jess’s birthday is today and I was worried that things would still be so awful between us that I wouldn’t be able to show her a nice birthday.
We spent the night together last night for the first time in many weeks. We also had sex this morning for the first time in just as long. I gave her a card with a long note in it. It was a combination love letter/apology/commitment to her. I took a shower while she read it and I was nervous about coming out of the bathroom because I really wanted a positive reaction and wasn’t sure I would get one.
I walked out of the bathroom naked and wet and vulnerable. She kissed me and said, “thank you for that.” And that was all she said.
I took a risk with the gift I gave her. It was something sexual that she wanted, but given our recently lack of sexuality between us I wasn’t sure how she’d feel about it. I gave her a gift certificate to a piercing place she has been wanting to go to to get her hood pierced.
She seemed very excited about it. She’s wanted this piercing for a long time.
We don’t have any plans for tonight. I wanted to take her out somewhere nice but we never talked about it and I didn’t want to plan it without her input. I texted her to ask if there was anything she wanted to do and she just said she wanted to spend time with me. That made me happy.
Last Thanksgiving I was single and depressed and starting down a road of a lot of anonymous sex. I never imagined that a year later I’d be in a relationship, and certainly not that it’d be with a woman.
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