Just need to sit down and write in Musings and Daily Events

God everything has just gotten so busy for whatever reason. It’s calmed down a lot though now that my papers are done and everything is over for a bit. I had exams and papers and the career fair and it was just a crazy couple of days.

M worked on Saturday this week which was pretty nice. We were swamped though so he and i didn’t have much time to play around. I was also in a bad mood because I wasn’t feeling well (period stuff ugh).

He texted me and said I looked good and I said thanks I’m going out tonight. I texted him something back about how he’s playing nice with Matt. He turned around and mouthed something about Matt so I assumed he was talking about the last message I sent. Turns out he was asking if I was going out with Matt that night. I said yes and he got kind of annoyed. I was like what’s wrong? He goes nothing I have to be okay with it right?

Then it hit me. he thought I said I was going out with Matt that night. So i was like oh I’m sorry no no I’m going out with my boyfriend. I misunderstood lol. Then he cheered up.

I still haven’t told him that Matt and I banged. I’ll get around to it. Just been putting it off. He gets so jealous though. The other day one of my acrylics came off my nail and I texted M asking if he had any crazy glue. He had this like industrial stuff and I was like nah bro this is for my nail, that really isn’t the best idea. I then said, no worries I’ll ask Matt if there’s any in the shop.

M legit got up and got crazy glue for me.

he came by my desk with a new tube of glue and was like here, and walked away. I was appalled and kind of flattered and I found it adorable. Did I mention there’s like beef between M and Matt? They really do not get along. It’s so funny.

Matt doesn’t know about me seeing M. No one knows about that except for you guys and Justin. I mean M could maybe loose his job and his life would just turn upside down because he lives with his girlfriend. So yeah that’s a total secret.

Anyway, I saw Matt yesterday. I wanted a quickie.

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I just wanted a good, hard pounding you know. I wanted to be bent over and fucked hard with a thick cock. So I’m excited to see him. My body is excited to see him. God he’s so hot though.

Turns out neither of us has a condom so fucking is out. UGH! I was so disappointed. So instead we opted for a blow job. It was a lot better for both of us this time around. I have a better feel of what he likes and I’m a little more accustomed to his size and shape.

I genuinely enjoyed sucking him off yesterday.

He fucked my tits. It was his first time ever doing that with anyone. It felt so good. I changed my nip ring that day to a horseshoe ring and it just made it feel even better. My nipples were rubbing up against him. It felt so incredibly good. I got off. He got off after a while and then I came to school.

E came to pick me up after my class. He was in such a good mood. We went out to dinner and had a great time just laughing and talking to each other. We were both a little frisky yesterday. On the car ride back home he kept sliding his hands all over my thigh teasing me.

Then we got home and I gave him a blowjob. It was fun and he got off rather quickly. He goes it’s your turn and at that point I just wasn’t in the mood anymore so I’m like eh I’m alright. He says let me know if you change your mind.

We crawl into bed and guess what. I changed my mind. He started rubbing me and I wanted him to go down on me. He said no because he didn’t want to get up and wash his face after. He’s been saying no a lot lately. Like dude, what the fuck. He always says I love doing it just ask. Then I ask and it’s like one reason or another he wont. He fingered me and I got off a bit and we went to bed.

At this point I’m just frustrated. We didn’t bang and I didn’t get eaten out. Again.

In the morning we woke up and he subtly pointed out the fact that he had morning wood. So I was like alright I get it. I sucked him off for a minute or two to get him lubed up and climbed on top. It was kind of mediocre. I was still sour from the night before and I was tired. It felt good but I didn’t get off.

He finished and was like “you didn’t get off huh?” I said no, I didn’t. He just got up and went into the bathroom.

I mean really? What’s a girl gotta do to get off around here?

sigh Maybe I’ll convince M to fuck me on Thursday. Just a quickie so I can get off properly. If not then hopefully, I’ll see Matt this weekend and we can bang.