Just another Saturday in Musings and Daily Events

Work was slow. I got annoyed a lot. It just wasn’t a good day for me. I was frustrated and on edge and angry.

My mom texted me and told me to text my ex boyfriend about a position opening not too far from here. So I got angry. Like, no. Why do you care? He left me. Why are you worried about him?

If he wanted to be on this side of the country or anywhere near me he would’ve stayed when I offered him a good life. I offered him everything, an apartment, a well-paying job, opportunity to grow and climb ladders…a true life with me. And he wanted none of it. It wasn’t good enough. Now he’s miserable and lonely in California. He has no friends over there and can’t get a date for the life of him. He’s struggling to find work and pay rent. He could’ve had everything but he decided to throw that away for what? A lonely apartment, a job you hate where you work hard for quasi no pay, and no life.

He gave up everything to have nothing. It’d be one thing if he was happy. I can deal with that. He is miserable over there. At least here with me he was happy.

Whatever. He can go screw.

I just hate how my parents dote on him. He’s not your son. And today my mom says to me, “Oh you should date him” referring to one of my coworkers. And it’s like, I have a boyfriend you really shouldn’t say things like that.

Fuck everyone.

Matt barely gave me the time of day today. Which I guess is a good thing. It means he took the whole, “no one at work ca know anything,” thing seriously. But still, I don’t know, he hardly acknowledged me. Didn’t even answer my text today. Whatever he can go screw too.

I think I’m just in a mood. I’m not normally this grumpy.

I just want a hug and to cuddle.