3:20 PM
So a storm hit a few days ago and I think lightning struck something and I lost internet. We called the company, they said “we have had 40 calls about it and we will work on it” however they didn’t send anyone out until today so I just got my internet back. I think mom is trying to turn things around with him, she started talking to him again and said no to the divorce. I am torn a little, it really enraged me last night I was so pissed about it but today I don’t know why but I guess I kind of accepted it and was more indifferent on the matter. I realize we need the money to survive. Anyway he is gone for surgery today and will be gone for a while, in the hosp 3 days or so and mom wont allow him back because she isn’t going to wait on him. Been feeling all over the place these past few days, going without internet has really driven me up the wall and I have been feeling depressed. I have to go for therapy tomorrow for the first time in forever, I don’t want to go but at least I will be able to dump everything thats been on my mind out.
Mom is sick again, she is really hurting and is bedridden today, we have no idea what is causing it but she says she is in so much pain. Truth be told though a big part of me wants my step father out of my life forever and the part of me that worries about money says that he is a necessity now, I am so torn.
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