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So, I have a boyfriend. With the exception of Jason, with whom I lasted 2 months back in 2013, I haven’t been in an actual, defined relationship since 2009 (and that was with Chris, who too lasted about 2 months). Prior to that was Tim in 2006. So, really, this is like my first REAL relationship in nine years. I’m so good at love.

We’ve been dating since last August and I suppose we’ve been together since maybe May, but that was more of a “we’re not together, but we’re together.” And now it’s a “we’re together.” It’s all so anticlimactic; the buildup to where we are now so gradual that being together became something that happened to us, rather than something we controlled. But it’s good. It feels grown up and healthy and balanced. Though I’m sometimes plagued by self-doubt, it’s less apparent than in past relationships. I don’t worry that he’s going to see through me, don’t fear him realizing that I’m tricking him am not afraid he’s going to see through my facade and run away. I guess because I’m fully myself with him - and he embraces all the dumb stuff about me that TNDD would take as evidence that I was a bad/selfish/rude/obnoxious person. Ugh. It’s so nice.

Oh, so the wedding. I pretty much recited word for word the note left by eleven:eleven, and still managed to say “Um” every other word. In the words of my mother, who was also in attendance, “It was pretty bad.” Oops, lol.

Career stuff has actually been going really well. I have a solid direction I want to go in (basically, become a ginormous blogger and make all my money from the Internets and without ever having to sit across from a client who is as equally committed to losing weight as she is to In n’ Out french fries and milkshakes). It took me a long time to find the motivation, but I think that was largely because I didn’t have a clear idea of where I want to go or what that would look like. I’m working on a business plan, have signed up for two photography classes, need to sign up for a public speaking class (see also aforementioned wedding speech), and have a tentative blog re-launch date of March 1st, 2016. I’ve started trying to limit socializing during the week to playing tennis with my SF BFF and seeing my boyfriend (what the fuck, haha) once during the week so I can work on all this stuff. While I’d ultimately like for it to be lucrative, my initial goal is just for it to replace my nannying income - which is so paltry, so shouldn’t be too difficult to achieve in a year’s time (which is my goal).

Also, diary nickname for the guy I’m dating is going to be LV, which is short for Louis Vuitton, which is obnoxious and also semi related to our names (unless someone can come up with a better nickname for him; I routinely refer to him as the iPhone puppy emoji over text, but that’s too annoying for a diary nickname, even for me).

Last updated August 14, 2015