Summer Yardie Pool Party in The Wanderer

Yesterday was the pool party at S&K’s house and it was so much fun!! It really made me realize that even though sometimes shit gets bad at work, I really do work with a bunch of awesome people. There are about 50 servers who work there which is a lot of people you interact with on a daily basis…so I guess for that amount of people, we are pretty lucky to all seem to get along for the most part. I was laughing at the amount of scandalous things occurring and learning about all the out-of-work stories like who was hooking up with who and all that stuff. You really learn a lot about people at a party like that. I absolutely love most of the girls I work with now, which is the complete opposite from when I first started working there! A lot of people were wondering what is going on with D and I and yes we were making out in the spa. We have pretty much been spending the night together most of the time, while he finishes out the last month in that back house. But we are definitely not going to get into a relationship with each other again. I enjoy our friendship, and friends with benefits works too because I really don’t want to start a sexual relationship with someone new any time soon. I have only had sex with one guy for the past year and it’s been him. With that said, I have been going on dates with other guys, and I did make out with a coworker who I really shouldn’t have, but I’m hoping he was drunk and doesn’t remember and that nobody saw us.
I had been dating Dustin for a few weeks and things were going super well. We went to San Diego and LA a couple of times, but then all of a sudden things seemed to get weirdly complicated. I can’t even describe what happened because I don’t really know, but any sort of connection I had felt with him was no longer there. Our texts/calls have been a lot less frequent and that butterfly feeling in my stomach is long gone. So whatever that was about, it definitely fizzled out. I did also go on a date to some really cool coffee place in downtown Riverside with a guy named Ralph who is from Brazil and is working on his doctorate degree in evolutionary biology. He was SUPER interesting, intelligent, and a genuinely nice guy, but there was definitely no chemistry between us. If we do hang out again, it will be as friends.
As for now, I am just focusing on getting things ready for school, and trying to save money. It is the “slow season” so work has been horrid. I went from making 2 grand a month, to barely 1200! So I definitely feel the difference, but at least I am not paying much in rent right now. I need to take to the car loan people and see if I can get on a lower interest rate plan and find out how to pay it off sooner than the original 3 year plan. I have also been researching different avenues to take with my BA in psychology, and at first I was thinking LPC, but I would pretty much be making only a little more that I make now as a server starting out and that is a scary though because I struggle enough as it is and I don’t want to feel this way for the rest of my life, especially adding on thousands of school loan debt! So I’m thinking clinical psychologist would be the best route to take. AND I even looked into military psychologist and if I can get into that they would actually pay for part of my doctorate! I really need to talk to more people and figure out what would be the best option for me, but I’m sure I will get plenty of advice once I start at CSUSB. I already might have a chance to do research work with a professor there who specializes in PTSD because my friend at work also did psych at CSUSB and is going to recommend me to her.
In other news, a good friend of mine told me she is pregnant. I for sure thought she would abort, she said her and her boyfriend even went to the place and she paid 650 and was about to and then said no at the last minute. Her boyfriend said if she doesn’t he doesn’t want anything to do with her or her decision because he doesn’t want to be a father yet. I understand because he is young and hasn’t even finished school yet. He hasn’t talked to her in 2 months. She is 3.5 months pregnant. I am just really shocked she has decided to keep it. She was always that friend of mine that would joke around with me about how people raise kids and how she would not want that and wouldn’t know what to do with a baby. It also scares me because she isn’t the first to think that and then get pregnant and realize she wants to keep it. I really hope that I don’t go through something like that and for whatever reason decide to keep it. Having a baby would be a horrible idea at this point in my life. I just hope she is really thinking it through. She has no family and works a full time job and a part time job so I just can’t understand how she thinks she is going to manage raising a kid on her own. But I told her I would support her in her choice and be there for her and that if anyone could do it she can!