GRATITUDE in DAUGHTER

Most of the time I don’t realize just how much I have t be grateful for. And even though I know I should be grateful I just am not. I don’t know why. I don’t know when and why I turned into this bitchy, old ungrateful woman. I try to change but I don’t do it very well. I know one day I will be sorry.
Instead of being very grateful that my daughter wants to spend time with me tomorrow I am upset because I planned to shop alone!!!!! I was going to see her in the afternoon at a party. Now she will be picking me up in the morning and I will go to her house for breakfast. So what is my problem????? I guess mostly it’s because I feel that I have little control over my life. It’s been like that with my hubby all my life!!!! I have to exert more pressure or at least state what I WANT!!!!!!! I bitch and complain to myself but I don’t exert my independence. WOE IS ME!!!!!! Anyone and everyone will walk over me if I don’t “demand” what I want and need. Most people wouldn’t care!!!!!