self love. in Thoughts.

My goal is to learn to love myself. I’ve always kind of loved some things about myself, and then not loved others. Which I think is okay, because I’m working on those things. But I need to learn how to have a deep self love, even in my darkest moments.
I don’t hate myself, despite everything I’ve done wrong and how I am. But I was reading inspirational memes last night and one said that I should love myself because of, not in spite of, what I am.

I have a lot of self doubt. I worry that what I think I am, I may not actually be. I compare myself to other people too much. I give myself reasons not to love myself when I should be doing the opposite. If I don’t believe in myself, why would anyone else? If I don’t believe in myself, I won’t believe that they do.

I am kind. I am honest. I am creative and passionate. I am bubbly and silly. I am beautiful. I am smart. I am strong. I am worth loving. Not just by others, but especially by myself.

If I put negative thoughts in my head, negative actions will come out. If I give my insecurities power, I will be weakened by them. I’m stronger than that.

I’m challenging myself to let my demons rest. To let go of the past, my mistakes over the years. The person I have been when I let my insecurities take over. I’m not that woman and it’s time to stop carrying the burden of her thoughts and actions on my shoulders. I deserve better from myself.