Diet and a Baby Outfit Monday, March 12, 2007
On again off again diet. I ate a block of cheese this past weekend. With that cheese I ate a pound of burger, and we mustn't forget the chips. Knowing that, you all must know I also won a losing weight contest. Total lost: 5.4 pounds. Everyone else lost less. I won 30 bucks! Whoo hoo! Now I must start again. Losing weight is hard.
Today I received my very first baby outfit. Someone gave me a little boy's short and tshirt 3/6 months. It's cute. No, I am not pregnant, nor do I want to be. However, I will be someday so they told me to hold onto it. I think I will start collecting some. Maybe buy an outfit here and there. Just what's on sale. Derek told me all he has is boy sperm so I needn't buy girl clothes. All I have ever imagined is having a girl. However, ever since I have been with Derek all I can see myself having is a boy, and this was even before knowing he wants 3 boys. I could just imagine a little Derek. How cute! A little Shannon would be precious too, but that goes without saying! HA HA HA!
19 days until I move.
Keith messaged my diary the other day. He said he was just saying goodbye. This bugs me. I already said goodbye to him. I don't want need him to contact me. It just makes things complicated. I like my simple life now. With him in my life I have to worry and wonder if his g/f is going to try to contact me. With out him I know none of that will happen. I like the simple life. Derek. Derek makes me believe in love. Keith makes me nervous. I answered Keith's note with "This will be my last time conversing with you. I forgive you for hurting me, but I won't forget." He answered back, "I am trying to say goodbye but it's hard. I may call you to let you know how serious I am." I have not replied nor will I ever again. There was time in my life that I would have fallen to my knees and bowed down to Keith. I was addicted to him. He was the sun and I revolved around him. Just one look from him would melt my heart and make my knees weak. That time of my life is over. I am not the one that has to accept that. He has to. The ironic part is the whole time I loved him I would have chopped off my own arm for him, and he wouldn't even take a second look my way. Now that it's over, he can not let go of me. He is finding it impossible to just forget me, and I can't say the last time I even thought about him.
Anyway, Derek is my sun now. However, it's not in the "I revolve around him way." It's in the "he keeps me warm and pushes away the rain, way." And that's a much better way.
Her
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[OddJohn] 3/13/2007 7:11:20 AM
Awww...I'm so glad you found a man that makes you feel that way. It's a hard thing to find these days. [kluv] 3/13/2007 9:53:39 AM
im glad you found Derek. Keith will learn to let go soon enough. That seems to be the way men like that are. Not interested until you are gone. [muted exposure] 3/13/2007 11:47:40 AM
Derek sounds nice. baby clothes are so cute :) make sure they're unisex! :D [dontyouforgetaboutme] [p] 3/13/2007 7:21:03 PM
that's the way a lot of men are, want what they cant have(anymore). you're better off having a "sun" in your life that treats you right :)
btw...congrats on not giving up with your diet! :)
it is hard...no idea what your goal is...but i'd be happy to get close to your current!:) [ItalianMama] [p]
3/13/2007 8:58:38 PM
Sorry, I find it ridiculous and annoying when men make comments about "only having boy sperm" or "REAL men have SONS" as if they have any control!
My sister was with a guy (father of 2 of her sons) who only had one testicle. He was CONVINCED therefore that he could ONLY have sons, and when his current G/F had a GIRL last summer, he thought she'd been cheating! Dr had to set his idiot mind right! [Mommy2Katie]
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