Derek and C Monday, January 08, 2007
I met Derek 2 and a half years ago. We dated shortly, and he basically decided to see someone else. I was a bit crushed at first, but then I moved on. He lived a little over an hour away at the time, so it wasn't that hard to get over. Some time last year him and I lost contact. He moved to Florida and we didn't talk all that much. Well, actually we didn't really talk at all. Then about a week before he moved back to Michigan he called me. I didn't answer the phone. I called him back a week later and we have been talking since.
He took me out for a drink a couple days before New Years. We had a really good time. We drank, we talked, we laughed, and it was nice. We went to the mall earlier in the week and he kept his arm around me. I felt a bit odd because I didn't know what to expect. He had never done this kind of thing with me before. I tried to keep my distance from him because in all honesty... I felt weird. I didn't expect this from him at all.
On New Year's Eve my cousin and I had drinks. I invited Derek over and he came. He was very friendly to me and kissed me. When we were on the balcony he put his arms around me and for the first time in a long time, it didn't feel weird. I actually held him too. I thought that it could have been the alcohol I was drinking that made me more affectionate, but a couple days later he came over to see me and when he hugged me, I felt comfortable hugging him back.
He calls me every day. It's a nice feeling. However, who's to say this will work out? He's living here in my town taking care of his dying Grandfather. Who's to say he doesn't get up and move as soon as he passes away? I am being very cautious because I am just not sure where this is heading. I want it with all my heart to work out. He's a really good guy. I mean the man work from 5am to 3pm at a factory. Then he rushes home to help his Grandfather. Then at 5pm he goes back to another job. Then at 10pm he goes and puts his Grandfather to bed. The man is such a good person. He always calls me between jobs and asks me how I am. Then today he called and offered to come to my work and drop off a Frosty to me. He's just sweet like that.
I want this to work out. I really do. I just don't want him to get up and leave. I just am scared it's not going to work out. So I am taking things very slow.
Now as for C and the pregnant thing. That's not fair to either guy. (Derek or C) So, of course I am not going to try to get pregnant. Besides, C is back from his trip and still hasn't contacted me. He will. I don't have any doubt about that. It's just a matter of time.
So in conclusion, I guess it's all just a matter of waiting. You know, just seeing where things go. 2007 will be my lucky year. I am 31 years old and that was my lucky number. It was my basketball number. This year can't go wrong. It's already full of promise. I got a kiss on January 1st. I found 10 bucks on the ground at the gas station. I am paying off my car in less than 3 months. This will be a great year. There's no doubt in my mind.
Her
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I'm happy that you are taking things slow, its probably best. I truly hope this year is yours, you DESERVE it! [One Crazy Mom] 1/9/2007 12:20:45 AM
Dont be too gaurded.
Otherwise you're working against yourself.
If you go through life trying not to get hurt.. you may never get hurt that bad but you'll never allow others to love you as much as they would want to love you either.
[LastInLine] [p]
1/9/2007 12:22:24 AM
Sounds like your year is starting off very well! I hope that it's a truly outstanding year for you :-)
[OddJohn]
1/9/2007 12:56:28 AM
I hope for your sake that he doesn't leave but good luck anyway. Try not to vest too much in him. [teenytinylilkelz] 1/9/2007 1:58:42 AM
maybe you didnt get pregnant before because someone knew something better was coming. i hope you finally get the happiness you deserve. he sounds like an awesome guy. [muted exposure] 1/9/2007 8:56:07 AM
they say good things come to those that wait, and the funny thing is we all know what we want and sometimes we tell ourselves we cant or shouldnt have it, but in the end destiny shall not be denied, it all workes out in the end [Doller Bill] [p] 1/9/2007 12:24:10 PM
Yeah...a kiss on New Years is awesome. Derek sounds nice. I hope he stays and you two spend more time together [lostonthesea]
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