Hello from up in the air once again. 6:00AM flights sure come early – especially when they are business trips and not for fun. Well, at least I have a little bit of time to update you on the latest goings on since my NY trip:
Valentine’s Day: Yes, this happened, and it happened in a pretty impressive way! Even through all of my questions and confusion surrounding the Bulldog, he actually worked up the…I don’t know…nerve (?) to ask me if I’d be his Valentine!
I wasn’t really sure what all that entailed, especially since he said he didn’t really want to fight all of the dinner crowds and stuff. And honestly, that was fine because I would have been happy simply to have a home cooked meal made with his hands (he’s a very, very good cook!).
But on V-Day, I got up and out of his bed to run some errands. I actually had lunch with SexyPants [gasp] for a couple of reasons. One, I had to go to the eye doctor and SP lives close to her office and I had the dog with me. SP was kind enough to take the puppy to his place after we had lunch. Two, well, I was just kind of curious as to how he was. He was a bit sick with a cold, but otherwise fine. I realized my heartbreak is nearly over.
THEN, I raced back down to the Bulldog’s place because he was looking for me. Strange, but OK…he doesn’t normally wonder what I’m doing but I guess it was because it was Valentine’s Day and all…
ANYWAY, got back to the Bulldog’s and walked in the back door with Puppy to find my Valentine had gotten me the most stunning bouquet of tulips, plus a giant box of truffles AND he was taking me to dinner! Oh, and the most adorable card of a puppy with a heart. He signed it, “Love, [Bulldog]”
Love.
Yeah, I don’t know about that, but I had a fantastic time with him that evening.
Since then it’s felt more and more like a “real” relationship, whatever that means. I’m still not convinced that this could turn into something more than what it is, and I can tell he’s not either.
How I wish I could figure this one out, but all I got is that it’s been a great distraction, though quite a bumpy ride. I’m happy we hang out and I LOVE having sex with him (he is extremely generous in bed). I just wish that there were a few more things involved.
He’s super neurotic.
I’ll get into that at some point, I’m sure.
The Office: Eh, work is work. I am soooooooo lucky I get to bring my puppy to work. It truly makes all the difference, especially since work’s been getting me down lately.
I’m heading out on today’s biz trip to meet a new buyer face-to-face. This could be great or it could be disastrous. I’ll let you know. All I can tell you is that during my first conference call with her the week before last all I could hear ringing in my ears was, “You can do better…you’re taking the easy way out!”
That truly chaps my hide.
So I need to meet this chick and look her in the eye.
Like I said, could be good…could suck balls.
Next week I have to take a trip to Florida for a convention. I’m not really looking forward to that, but I need to make myself look forward to it. I need to find ways to have fun on this trip or it will just be another bummer.
Last year I did the same trip to the same convention, and it was during the darkest days of the SexyPants breakup and I was miserable. Now, a year later, I feel much more on the bright side, but I know that there are things that I could actively be doing that will make it even brighter.
Must look at this differently!
The Month of March: Speaking of different, I’m going to try some new things. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this. I need to kickstart a few things, and I know I can’t do everything at once, but there are a couple of things that I know I can do if I concentrate on them for one simple month:
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Write some thoughts out every day. Here is a perfect place to do this. I’m inspired by [Athena] and her daily entries (even though she may be tired of doing them!). I’d like to try this again. I used to do this during NoJoMo and I really liked doing them.
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Stop drinking for the month of March. This would be in addition to eating much better. I don’t necessarily want to put myself on a restrictive diet, but I think that just cutting the alcohol for a month will really do me some good. I’ve turned kinda mushy, both in body and mind and I think that this could be one of the keys to getting back to…well, something better.
There. I wrote them down. I’m going to do this!
Better go. We’re on our decent.
See you soon!
Love,
GS
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