Two Posts N 1 Day ** in Plan B

Normally I don’t but this is when I normally write so here goes. I did unpack today all my books. It felt good to set them free from the boxes. It was like seeing old friends. To find the joy in reading again has helped me so much. I am slowly finding myself again and it feels good. What a long strange journey this has been. If you would have told me last year that I would be sitting in an apt. back in town I would thought your crazy but here I am and I am finding it was the right choice ~ thank gawd. This place is just big enough for me and the kids. It’s actually a good size apt. and I always wanted to live here. When I first seen it when Wendy lived in it and it was such a mess. I thought I could fix it up cute and now I have it and it is a nice space. Wood floors, windows that face nothing but trees and the person who I rent this place off of feeds me. No kidding. Real meals and their veg heads like me. I surely would not have made it this far with out her. She is a blessing. This whole situation is. For once in a long time - such a long time I feel internally more quite. For a while there it felt like I had bees inside of me. Always humming always moving never quite - after a while it gets nerving to the point of will it ever stop and now it’s slowing down and it’s not so loud.
Everything will be ok. Slowly I will get in the groove of things and everything will be ok. I truely belive that. I have too. I got a bunch of calanders this year because I go thru them with work and all. Sharon gave me a nice one and I am putting on there nothing but positive stuff on the days. Just random things - Smile more, light insence, be more grateful, swing on swings, burn some candles, dance ect. I needed balance. My other calander is all my people and I needed something to even things out a bit. Now just to be sure to fill it in with good things. Positive vibes bring positive vibes keep it movin and rollin thru the whole year.
Going to finish watching Parenthood then off to bed. It’s going to suck when it ends. I love this and Nashville.