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I feel so starved for emotional and physical connection.
I spent all night crying my eyes out last night.
By the time I got the kids to bed it was 1am, and I was tired but I would have sacrificed some sleep for some time with him, but he didn’t feel the same, I guess.
I have been trying so hard this week. Just giving everything that I have. It hurts to feel like I am alone in this, that he has decided that I change or he leaves. Maybe it isn’t that way, but it feels like it.
He never used to be as critical of me as he is now. I am always afraid to make a mistake or say the wrong thing.
I miss the way he used to feel about me. If he still does, he isn’t showing it much. It fucking hurts. I love him so damn much.