survey just like the olden days on OD in Procrastination Journal

23 DEEP ASS questions, one at a time.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
   The one with me telling how I feel. Speaking with any strong emotion is hard. I remember one time during study abroad I got so pissed at the girl we all hated. I was talking to Brittany, asking her if she would take something back to the rental place, since she didn’t have class at the same time as me. And the girl listened and asked loudly about someone not having classes, and then everyone got interested, “What? I didn’t hear anything about this…”
   I think I just got so mad because she butted into my conversation, and then got everyone in a tizzy over nothing. I could barely bite out the words, I felt like I didn’t have the breath, I told her “you don’t know what you’re talking about.”

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
   Got into an argument with my dad. He is ridiculous and has anger problems. It makes me angry and scared, and upset. Yes, I feel the same way.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
   I would call my dad because he’s the most likely to pick up and I would tell him i’m probably going to die, please take care of Coco, tell everyone I love them.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
   I would probably tell my family and the school, then quit school. I would get my headstone and funeral outfit/coffin in order, then I’d just watch all the movies I need to watch before dying.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
   Probably trust for my career.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
   Yes, I save the dog’s life, because life is more important than that shitty job. However, I’d probably take the dog into work to verify the excuse XD

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
   The one I trust the most.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
   I tell her, well, Sasha, sorry but you’re just going to have to get over it.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
   In a heartbeat, but she has to be healthy. And giving up one year of my life is fine because it means I’m one year closer to being with her for forever.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
    Yes.

11. Does love = sex?
    No, because there are so many types of love. I think that romantic love does need a healthy sex life though.

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
No, because I probably have no income too.

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
I don’t remember. Probably my aunt telling her I was upset that she made me wanting to go to a restaurant a group thing. I didn’t want to go with my cousin, because she’s hateful.

1. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
   That I love them.

2. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
   Probably another member of my family. Because duh.

3. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
   My aunt on the phone a little bit ago.

4. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
   I would’ve studied more for antibiotics but I did okay on that test so it’s okay.

5. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
   I would try at least, because apparently I’m certified.

19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
Two reasons why this doesn’t make sense: Firstly, why would you have to choose? it’s not like they weigh the same? You could easily pull up the baby and then use your other arm to help you hold your grandmother. Secondly, all of my grandmothers are long dead, so I’d just let go of what’s left of the corpse.

1. Are you old fashioned?
   only when it comes to clothes.

2. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
   every day, I don’t expect much.

22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
True love with guarantee of a broken heart, because at least I’d get to experience it.

23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
I would wish to be with my mom. Preferably her being back, healthy, but if it had to be in the other direction that would be fine.