I Don't Even Know... in Okay

Do you remember crying yourself to sleep?
Or hiding in the bathroom stall at work wishing it'd all go away?
Have you chosen that dark tunnel again or are you somewhere else?
I know it stopped for awhile
And I hope you're doing okay 
I hope you're happy
And I hope you remember that you're not invisible,
That you're strong and capable 
And you're worth more than closing off that beautiful heart,
That you're worth all the things you want
You made those changes, 
It breaks me that I don't get to see it
And it makes me sad that I don't get hear you
And frustrated that I still feel like I need to
I miss giving you these words because they don't feel worth half as much these days,
And I miss the words you'd write me and I miss your name
It doesn't matter what I do or who I'm with
The thoughts of letting you go, forgetting you, never seeing/talking to you
Is difficult because five days from now, I fell in love with you like I never have with anyone
It's like it's burned, branded on my fucking soul 
And I know you felt the same once, it was written all over heart and body
So I'm still trying to figure out how the fuck we fucked it up. 
It'll never make sense to me