I don't know what to do in Okay

I've got so many negative adjectives rolling around in my head 

Worthless...Hopeless...Abandoned...Too much, not enough 

I've got core pillars of who I've been crumbling around me 

I've lost faith in what I used to believe

And I can't write, it all sounds like shit 

I don't want to do it.

Cuz it doesn't feel the same anymore

I'm embarrassed and I feel weak 

I can't talk about it and all I do is think about it 

I don't know how I gave you this much control

I hate myself for letting you make me feel the way I do about myself

But I'm broken and I'm not who I was 

And I don't know how to get back to the person I used to be