Another tired day. No breathing issues in my sleep, but it was very fragmented and included a nightmare. After dreaming we were in a hotel vacationing somewhere (at least we can travel in my dreams), I dreamed I was walking down a busy street. A semi suddenly lost control and was heading toward me. I had nowhere to run because I was walking alongside a steep mountainside. I was 100% sure the truck would hit and crush me, but by some miracle, it didn’t.
Despite being tired, I managed to see Rhonda without feeling like I was going to fall asleep on her. I like her way better than Arteaga. She’s friendlier and doesn’t deny that levothyroxine can cause anxiety. What she said scared me, but it’s something I already know and definitely worry about. She said, if I don’t get my sleep squared away, it’s eventually going to affect my health. That’s exactly what I’m worried about, too. I would literally rather die than face additional health issues. But I live in the fear that it’s going to force me into a heart attack or stroke that may be even more debilitating than the sleep issues already are.
She couldn’t do much about the breathing issues, which will hopefully be dealt with—or at least begun to be dealt with—in 6 days. But as for the fragmented sleep, she recommended I try what her husband does. He takes 10 mg of melatonin in addition to his clonazepam, which she confirmed is safe to continue taking the way I’ve been taking it. She even called in a 90-day supply. As I told her, I almost never take a whole one, and not every day. I take half two to three times a week. She said to start with 5 mg of melatonin, and if that isn’t enough, increase it to 10. I have a feeling this isn’t going to help, but hopefully I’ll be surprised.
Sometimes I still feel cursed. But if I am, would it really want to kill me? You can’t curse someone if they’re dead, after all.
Anyway, I’ll see her again virtually in 6 months, and will go to the lab before that as well. It won’t be a fasting lab because she won’t be testing cholesterol, but she will be testing my cortisol levels. I’m also going for CAC testing and a mammogram on the same day at the same nearby imaging center I went to for my gallbladder ultrasound. I haven’t scheduled it yet. I’ll wait till after the ENT, since it’s not critical. I guess the CAC test looks for hard calcified plaque, but it’s the soft plaque that can be more dangerous. She’ll probably order an angiogram if she thinks that’s necessary.
When I mentioned the ENT might have to give me a referral to a surgeon, she said they have those there. That will definitely make it more convenient. Hopefully, if I need surgery, I can go to Brooksville, where I had gallbladder surgery, because then we won’t need to stop and charge.
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