Well, last night - Nala did not stay in the room with me. Which I’m guessing is her way of saying, “Dog park was nice; but without downstairs time, I’m not sufficiently exercised or bonded.” But as I struggled to get up (time switch hits something awful), I turned my gaze to the flurry of activity outside of my window.
Now in the grand scheme of things- it was hail last night in Iowa City so any weather pattern pushing from the east was bound to cause… something like this! But it certainly made the drive in and the walk to the office more wet.
Upon arriving in the office, one of the few attorneys from our hallway texted to say “Fever, sore throat, hacking up a lung- wouldn’t be in.” Which… got me thinking. I was presuming that meant that this must be the origin for the bug I’m currently fighting. And as I heard a symphony of coughing throughout the halls in the Attorney’s Offices; that may yet be proved true. However, it is also true that one of the performers in my show was battling a significant sinus infection at one of our last rehearsals. I probably should write more about this particular performer at some time as she and I have worked together before and, but for her age (mid-20s), I would find her intriguing! But… really that thought just establishes… whether at work or at rehearsal, there is a bug going around and it sure seems like you’ve caught it!
The day has largely been “teach the law student how to do my job” because the intent is… after she passes the bar, we’ll make a job offer to her. Which should fill me with relief! Finally I can call in sick or go on vacation or have jury trials without needing to do multiple other people’s jobs while that is going on! The very idea that this department could get a second body, as it was designed to have, should fill me with joy. But it’s me. Almost instantly my brain started whispering, “This way, they can fire you! You’ve been doing this job for four years. You’re messy and you don’t have a strong win ratio. In fact, people like working with you because you’re more likely to give plea deals. With a law student turning full time employee? They could finally can your ass like they should have before now.” Yeah- sometimes my brain is an asshole. I’m trying to ignore that rhetoric. But it was a perfect training day. Stuff to do; but not so much that I couldn’t slow it down to make sure she understood. Enough people but not overwhelming. The perfect “Sell Her On The Job” day as it did not involve a single OH FUCKING KILL ME kind of experience.
But… whatever is going around is definitely affecting me. It’s a performer’s cycle. While teaching the law student, while interacting with Defendants- I can be peppy and healthy looking and sell the “experienced, in the know, trustworthy, professional” persona. As soon as the audience vacated, I was exhausted. Utterly drained. Feeling weak, coughing, tired. Like a light switch. People, “ON”. People leave, “OFF”. Which… makes me nervous about tonight. I don’t have rehearsal (if I did, I would probably get sicker) but I do want to use the time I have responsibly. I need to work on scheduling some important things and I need to work on my damned solo. If I am expected to actually sing it in front of a crowd in 3 days, I need to get it to a much better place!
After about an hour at the dog park, I found myself getting hungry. Which tracks. I’m doing the Apple + Banana + Lean Cuisine lunch routine again. I never seem to lose weight, but I sure seem to stay hungry. (I’d say that’s fucking ridiculous, but I understand how neurochemistry works- stress is nobody’s diet buddy). We came home and I set to work on my list.
Step One: Schedule Tax Help. Done- set for Saturday.
Step Two: Therapy. I sent the BetterHelp therapist a “I need you to tell me more before I decide” but also looked into other possibilities. Using different methods, I discovered a possibility that works out of Bettendorf… 139 miles away but if she does Virtual, that should be fine. I also found someone that does virtual only who works out of Washington. And… at least currently has some 4:30 availabilities. Which, yeah, I’d have to leave work a little early… but could work if I need them. So… still working on options.
Step Three: Phone Number and Hours for local Gardening Professionals- hoping to finally get some things taken care of that the landscaper said weren’t her problem
Step Four: Phone Number and Hours for local Locksmith to rekey doors and bolts so that I finally have reliable keys to the house
Step Five: Phone Number and Hours for local Chimney Sweep.
With step three through five done… I know it isn’t scheduling services but it is still closer to getting things taken care of then they were before. I just need to make sure I know what my upcoming schedule is so I can set appointments or get quotes. Though- with True Green, mostly I want to see if they really would help how I would need or not. So that phone call is information gathering more than scheduling.
But with that taken care of? I ordered dinner (wanted to do a breakfast thing) and worked on my solo some more. Hopefully, I’ll get some downstairs time with Nala. While I was on the computer doing Steps Two through Five she was pouting because I wasn’t playing with her. SO.... should fit that in before bed at some point today!
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