March 5, 2026
Good Thursday morning. Had another drinking dream last night - so weird. They are my most common dreams and they are all similar. I find myself excited about the fact that I’m going to have a drink, I see myself drinking whatever the drink is, and as soon as that “feeling” hits, I realize that I’m drinking alcohol after I made a promise to myself that I do not drink alcohol anymore for my OWN HEALTH.
I feel like I’m just surprised that if my subconscious is spending so much time working through this, how important alcohol was to me. I didn’t realize that booze had such a chokehold on me, but clearly it did. It was part of my daily routine for a good percentage of my life.
The good news is that when I wake up, I’m very relieved that it was only a dream. And I have zero cravings or desire. In fact, I think it reinforces the fact that I no longer drink.
Man, two and a half years in and I’m still working through it.
So, to continue where I left off a little over a week ago, I had the important video interview last Friday. I went through the whole routine again (described in my last entry), braced myself for a tough and very important discussion, and ACED that motherfucker!
I honestly was so happy when we got off the call. I knew I’d done a great job! The VP was smiling and taking notes from the get-go. And she even said she wanted to move me to next steps, which would be talking to some cross-functional partners, likely this week.
Well, sure enough, I was scheduled to meet (via Teams meeting) with three more people this week…and these are not peers - these are MORE VPs. UGH. Oh, and one more director.
Two down - I had them yesterday - and one more to go this week. The last one, on Friday, will likely be the toughest one of all (besides the VP I talked with last Friday).
So, the neck taping continues, HA! I just feel like I need to look younger than my actual age for this role. Because the thing is, I feel so much younger than my actual age (and kinda act much younger too, at least I hope). Also, I have been wearing the same outfit for all of these interviews. I think that the colorful and flowy top and fun accessories are my lucky charms. As I’ve worked my whole career, this is a role that combines creativity with technical and financial acumen and I feel like what I’m wearing, how I look and my tone of voice is a potential winning combination to score this position.
And the other thing is, this position is a “manager” role and not a “director” role as I’ve had previously…though the responsibilities are honestly director-level if you compare this role to my most recent director-titled roles at The Cool Cat Company and even The Cutie Pie company.
Am I backtracking in my career? Honestly, I don’t think so. This job is at a major corporation so my work would be much more impactful (making decisions for a multi-billion dollar company), AND there are many, many more benefits to the job, and though I know that no jobs are as secure as they used to be, if I can snag this role, it’s something I feel like I’d like to take me through my retirement in about 10 years. If I can do a good job as a manager here, and I don’t get caught in a layoff, I feel sure it could work for me to ride it out.
This is a strategic move for me.
Keep the vibes coming, y’all. They are working. And I’m manifesting.
In fact, I’m trying all of the manifesting techniques.
I recently learned about the “O Method” of manifesting. Thanks, TikTok. If you’re curious about it, take a peek on the ol’ Tok and you’ll see. So many people say it works, and it works fast, and I say hey, whatever works!
And it’s fun, too!
Enjoy your day, my loves! Keep up the good energy 💗
xox,
GS
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