How I was just complaining about not wanting to start a business or go out of my way to do all this work, and yet here I am doing A LOT of work 😂
I’m not lazy. I never have been. I think I just need to frame things more favorably for my inner child spirit. I love to do the things that call to me when they call to me. Right now that is growing tons of plants. Plants plants plants! I don’t think I have an obsession or a problem with “only wanting to work my way”… I think my spirit just rewards me with surplus energy and motivation when I’m following a natural passion and not scrapping my self worth.
I’m not saying that a job or a business has anything to do with anyone else’s self worth. It’s more or less my own feeling about my own relationship to the world and the world’s needs vs my needs. Basically, that I need to have an extremely low-stress and slow life in order to develop my energy enough to be really productive. Like, even having a mortgage is stressful to me. So, well pay it off. Having to pay for water is stressful. So I’ll dig out a shallow well.
Part of the Reality Transurfing book talks about having alternatives. A plan B. There is no way to reduce the importance of some things in our lives-like shelter, water, food- other than having alternatives. And that is something I have pondered for quite some time. Why does having a mortgage cause me SO MUCH STRESS? Maybe it doesn’t for other people. For me, I can percieve the difference like a ticking time bomb in the other room.
And it’s the same for water, and for food.
Less so for heat and electricity. Maybe it’s an innate recognition that these are actually luxuries. Nevertheless, they are luxuries which cost increasing amounts of our (collective humanity) resources.
Taking care of my energy and stress at home has been one of the most transformative endeavors I’ve ever engaged in. I can sense that this is the forefront of a development that has yet to reveal just how immense it really is. I dream and imagine that it would be nice to be somewhat else and so something else. But for NOW, and now is all there is, we have a house and everything we need.
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