Christmas Eve 2014 in Plan B

A rain came thru earlier and with that a cold front. We had winds all day then the rains came late afternoon early evening. Busy day. Before I did my lil lady I loaded up the car with plastic bags in the trunk. Then I did my lady this a.m till 1:30 then went to chipoletes and got a burrito. Wow tired after that. Took the kids for a walk which was a blessing because it gave me the nrg to do what I needed to do to get stuff done and I did and that feels wonderful. I took all my hanging clothes over to the new apartment and hung them up,unloaded the garbage bags which were sheets and blankets. Then came home grabed some more plants and a bucket,broom,mop and vinegar and headed back over. Just then it started to rain hard. O well - keep on a goin. Got there and it was so nice to be there alone with the rain just coming down and becoming one with my new space. There was no music no nothing. I just methodically started sweeping the floors and washing them in no particular hurry and it felt like a sense of calm came over me that I haven’t experienced in a long long time. I washed the floors twice and really checked out the space and closed my eyes and pictured my things there and in a sense said good bye to my home and hello to this new adventure. I am ready to move on. I am ready to let go not only emotionally but physically as well and it feels right. It feels good. Finally. I could see if this house contained lots of memories and what not but it dosn’t. Too short of a time - just over 4 years and nothing happened in this house to really want me to want to stay and fight for it ~ I can’t. Not financially, spititually, emotionally. It’s all gone. I don’t feel bad about it. I am just ready to move on. Ready or not here I come.